Hey y'all! I'm trying out a new thing. For today's post, I interviewed Matt (who's popped up on the blog before!) and Ethan, two FTM teens. They were honestly super nice about the whole thing, they are amazing people sahgsdgadfddjhgafd. Anyways. The questions will be in bold and I'll use the first letter of their names to mark their answers. How does dysphoria/dysmorphia affect you on a daily basis? M: It’s kind of an underlying pain, and it’s on my mind a lot more than I’m willing to admit. Very few people actually know, and I’m too scared to tell more people about it, also. And I feel very wrong about it and really wish it would go away. So I guess it’s just a major annoyance. E: It’s constantly at the back of my mind at the end of the day. Its a major annoyance, yes! It affects my clothing choice to achieve the satisfaction I would like. At the end of the day, I realize it takes progress to get through this. Is there anything you wish cisgender people would know or understand about being trans? E: It's not a trend. Its something people really go through and make an independent decision on. I feel as if my body should be respected just as yours should be. M: It’s not really your business what I’m doing and what I want to do, or how slow I’m taking it. If you’re genuinely curious, I’m happy to explain. If you’re rude, you’re not worth my time. I didn’t make any of these choices for you, and I know what I’m feeling much better than you do. What's the most difficult part of being trans? M: All of it E: The most difficult part for me would be the lack of legal protection and knowing at 13 transgender women were killed for being who they were. I walk among people who I fear that will spill my secret and I could end up dead because of it. The fact that I have to constantly fear for the criticism and stigma is something I live with constantly! I have almost nothing. M: I mean. Mood. Also just. Dealing with it is hard. Dealing with all of it is hard. And a lot of stuff matters so much more than it should to a lot of people, like names and pronouns. How does society's perception of trans individuals affect how you see yourself? What about your family's and friends? E: The current society is slowly getting better at accepting (ever so slowly, sadly, I wish this progress would hasten) us, but it affects me into just being who I was. Its not satisfying to receive a negative sanction from someone like a look of disgust when you tell them. My family has slowly come to accept who I am and I'm happy about it. I do what I want. I could care less about how others feel about me. M: Honestly I’ve been seen as everything but a normal human being by a lot of people, but that’s mainly because of where I live I would guess. It’s just seen as not right to many and often brings up more concerns than I think it should, given everything I want isn’t anything I can’t go back on later, but everything is treated like it is. My family knows that I have dysphoria and really wish I didn’t, if I could live out this time as a cis person I would be more than happy to but I just can’t bring myself to do that. It feels bad knowing that when I want to even change my name a bit it upsets my family, but staying as I am hurts me a lot. If there's a day when you're feeling particularly dysphoric/dysmorphic, what do you do to ease those feelings? Is there anything the people around you can do? M: Most of the time I just feel Bad in general but when it's bad I wear hoodies and shorts no matter what the weather, although my normal tastes in clothes is really all over the place. People who know me can maybe just leave me alone about my dysphoria, personally I really don't enjoy talking about it more than I need to. E: To ease feelings of such, I usually talk it out or write it out through a piece of paper. Solving the issue that causes the feeling is what is most important to me but I want to do it in the safest way possible. I eat foods that generate higher levels of testosterone. I set boundaries emotionally. I assert my identity! M: Oh I also drink a shit ton of green tea Last one- is there any advice you have for individuals who have just realized they are trans? E: The best advice I can give is to dig into it. If you truly experience these feelings, I suggest doing research and asking trans individuals for assistance. They are the help and support you may need. Everyone's discovery is different. M: Be gentle to yourself. Make sure you take your time. Be accepting of your feelings no matter how they change. Be careful, make sure you don’t rush anything when you’re not ready. Know what matters and what doesn’t, know what you won’t be able to go back on. But be strong. Only you really know where you stand on these issues. Be kind to yourself, no matter what. It’ll be bad, really bad, at points, but you’ll be happy in the end if you are careful and gentle with yourself and your emotions. Sometimes it’s hard when you have to wait, or your family is unaccepting of you. But it will get better, your first priority is your safety. Get some good supportive friends that can help you. But only you know how you truly feel, and it will be your choice and your choice only in the end, no matter what. So there you have it. I LOVE THESE TWO BOYS I SWEAR Once again, you can find Matt on Instagram @grayblueart and contact Ethan with his email, [email protected]. I will FIGHT anyone who sends hate I stg. ~Cas (be gay do crime)
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Hello!My name is Cas, and I'm a asexual panromantic teen. I created this blog to make a safe space for everyone lgbt+. Here I will offer advice as well as look into lgbt+ pop culture, history, and current problems in our world today. Archives
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